I packed them up

Initially.. i start with taking the ring from my fingers.. it hurts me bad enuff... but all frenz said if i still keep things related to him.. i will never move on..

Last afternoon, i went to IKEA to buy a nice dark purplish box.. n last evening, i started to pack things related to him that are in my room inside the box..

Then i realised, there are so many things of him inside this lil room of mine.. its nt that i wanna throw them away, but for now, i just have to learn to let go.. i guess, he is too moving on very fast and i cant let myself to keep staying at point zero..

While packing, tears run down my cheek so badly but i forced myself to packed them all up.. from devil.. from the dried flowers... from all the photo frame.. the candle stand.. the neklaces, the ring, his clothes, the presents that i bought him but yet able to give him,.. its all packed up in tat box of mine.. After packing, i looked around my room, i know lotsa of things are missing.. but tat should be the way right? :) it pains me for sure.. but i guess, its time for me to take gud care n protect myself from getting hurt nemore rite?

I love him.. heapz.. till this moment.. but.. i know he wun look back at me nemore.. n if i keep looking at things related to him, i guess, i will never able to let it go.. The only thing that still left close to me is my guk2 n the mickey mouse puzzle...

I dun want to keep guk2 in the box.. guk2 realli meant a lot alot for me.. n he is always there listening to me so no reason to put him inside the box.. though its a gift from him but.. guk2 is different..

I realli hope.. i can walk out of this soon.. a memories to be remembered in later days but not now.. i know how i kept those stuff, i will still unable to forget but i guess, it will help me a lil bit..

I realli hope so.. Let me pain in awhile and maybe i have to get thru it d..

Dear God, give me strength yah... :)