The storm is over..

Me.. was drunk.. n acccepted a guy who i dun love at all.. wtf am i doin? David came to my place.. when i missed Firman so much.. i cried.. talked abt him to D.. drink..crying while talking all abt him.. n when D said.. "be my girl?" and i said ok.. wtf!!

Anw.. D sent me to office today.. this morning i told him.. my heart is nt with him at all.. my heart is still with firman.. though last nite i said ok but my heart doesnt choose him.. he changed my status in fb.. i let him be.. its just a fb.. wad matters is i know my heart.. he said.. its ok.. sooner or later, he believe, i will love him as well..

And in the noon time.. D was in my office. i was checkin my fb and again he kaypoh.. he looked thru Vero's fb and said something like.. "do u know who is AW?".. then i was like heh.. who is tat? then think n think.. is it Annita Wu? then i asked him.. why leh? he showed me the fb.. n i was ohh..

Reluctantly.. i was on Annita's fb page.. didnt know tat act Firman is close to her now.. ok.. then read on.. i guess Firman is chasin her now.. i dunno.. but looking at "I had a feeling that tonite is a good nite".. i suppose, maybe firman going to ask her to be his girl tonite..

Guess wad.. i was shocked when i get to know this.. realli very shocked.. last july i remembered, while we were playing bowling, i told firman that this gal is cute n pretty.. n now yeah.. there he is so close to her.. i dunno wad else to think..

I didnt know why i msg vero aso.. "koko gi ngejer anitta vero?" n her answer is "Ga tau tuh". Actually.. i know.. vero just dun want to hurt animore feelin.. or maybe she realli dunno..

I cant deny tat it hurts me... i cant deny that my hearts fell into pieces.. first is jesslyn... now is anitta.. but u know wad.. i know.. anitta is a gud n niice gal.. n dunno why i was thinkin, it would be good if she can look after firman actually..

After this.. after tonite.. i think the storm should be over.. n i should see things clearly now.. i love vero.. i love firman.. i love all of them.. how i wish i can have more time with them... but storm is over..

Looking at those who loves me.. i should start flipping my wings and fly again.. i shall just let this love tat i have.. be buried deep inside this heart.. deepest side in this heart... :)