Numb

Numb is the most scary thing that i had ever encountered..Some friends gave me different meaning of numb but..

These days, i tried to numb myself from lotsa of things.. so as i dun get hurt even more... Forcing myself to do things tat i dun want... to think of the things that hurts... to look at old pictures one more time.. Many people will think tat its self torturing but.. i guess tat is how i can see the reality..

I might be dumb all these while.. loving and believing.. even when i hurt like hell, i still wanna believe and in the end, its all lies and nonsense that i had been getting.. Life realli never feel so painful before.. but.. hey, i guess am awake..

Though, i still sleep with tears.. n heart is still aching but yeah.. i can still sleep eventually.. and i guess, by numbing myself more.. i will soon have no hurts.. but!!! numbing is dangerous cos i dunno what it might turn me into.. maybe to a better person or.. i might just lose myself again... i dunno..

Wadever it is.. i cant do much but to numb myself...Keep on numbing myself..