This morning.. i wake up with a heavy feel.. damn it!! one of my frenz is breakin down again.. and i totally can understand how he felt.. but i cant say much to comfort him cos i guess am in the same position as him..
I dunno why things can turn out so bad.. so many bully... arrgghh i hate it n im realli pek cek to see how people get hurt like that.. others might nt know wad is goin on.. or maybe might think negatively but..!!!! i realised..
Sometimes.. its just a simple love that makes thing complicated..
WHY?? in fact we just simply wanna love the one we love.. just simply wanna care for them.. but sometimes they read too much n things can become so complicated.. i realli hate the word LOVE now.. everytime u care for him or her.. u will just end up getting hurt! wth is wrong with this world.. n the funny thing is when people is getting close.. people dunno that these guys are all talking abt him.. worried abt him.. caring abt him.. n nt at all to lowered him down.. wtf!!!
And another thing is.. for someone who knew me 3.5 years to say things that doesnt make sense also make me pek cek.. i dun feel anitink nemore.. am numb and its realli up to him to say wadever things he wanna say abt me.. for always, am just a lil low gal for him.. am numb..
I dun deny i still care for him.. i dun deny i will still miss him.. all these i cant deny.. thoughh i said yeah fuck it i dun care nemore but i knew deep down my heart He is still there but wad is the point??? no point at all.. but yeahhh i wun cry nemore.. i wun be sadden nemore.. just enuf to hear n yeah.. so be it... n sometimes, its nt me who wanna hear it but ppl just keep tellin me stuff!!! n realli.. am sick of all this.. all the bad thought.. all the negative thoughts... i hate it bt he is always there!!!
In fact.. i saw his pic yest... by one of his frenz.. he looks so charming over there.. and in fact, i felt that i fell all over again for him... AGAIN!!! but deep down my heart knew.. its okay.. just look at the pic and yeahhhh flip it tru and carry on.. and i did it... i left the 'miss him' feeling there for half an hour but yeah.. go away d..
i dun wanna know anitink more.. i wanna protect myself from getting hurt.. i will love u still.. tat thing i cant deny.. maybe from far.. buried deep in my heart.. but im sure i will walk on and find my rainbow again..
Peace out!!!
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