Sorry i didnt blog for quite sometimes d... i was out most of the times with parties n gatherings..
this week had been so hectic.. very much that i dun have much time for myself... but i feel hollow inside..
With so much gatherings.. so much parties.. it seems that my life is so happening.. but its not at all.. i feel the emptiness that nobody would imagine but its blessed that i feel happy and realli happy when i was doing cell n do prayer workshops.. thats the only times when i feel realli happy.. Thanks Lord...
Anw, Hendri had told me that he thinks that he fell for me.. and he and D had talked it out that they gonna fight it out fair and square.. wadever my decision is in the end, it wun affect their friendship... but he said, no rush at all.. he understand wad i had been thru.. and he dun want to give any pressure.. just treat him like how i used to treat him.. and so far after his confession, he didnt realli give me much pressure like D and i realli appreciate it..
Im thinking, why would so many guys coming around in my life now? D, Hendri, Nicky, Steve etc etc... but the one am thinking and love is the one dun love me nemore? its realli ironic... despite all the activities, the emptiness i feel inside is cos.. am hoping that bb is around.. am i silly?
I miss you bb.. had been weeks and months that i didnt talk to u.. n i dunno wads going on with u.. i know.. there will be many many more months to go.. or maybe for the rest of my life, i wun be able to see or even hear your voice again but baby.. im missing u.. badly..
I know u will be angry that i didnt move on.. but.. am moving on... my works, studies, church, everything is okay.. but.. i cant force myself to love someone else.. i dunno why this time round, i cant make myself to try and fall in love with him.. and i just cant.. cos i know, my heart still belong to you..
Though.. u had broken mine into pieces.. n all shattered... though u dun love me nemore, dun look at me nemore.. but bb, im here still.. loving n missing u.. if one day, u happen to look back.. IF.. u know, im here... do remember what i promised you that nite.. I love u bb..
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